Friday, June 11, 2010

goodbye

5 minutes ago I turned my blog into a book.

My attachment to the blog has lessened considerably now that I have something tangible to remember it by.

There is no big mystery as to why I have decided to stop blogging. No hidden meaning. No resentments. No anything. I've just run out of things to say.

Thank you, to all, for your support over the last two years. Comments can be emailed to me at jillijavaandthegardenofeden @ gmail dot com.

I leave you with my favorite passage from Alcoholics Anonymous:

THE A.A. PROMISES

If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.

Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us—sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.




Stay sober and take care.

Kristin H.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

step two: where you least expect it

Every so often, I revert back to agnosticism. I can go years believing in gOd, then within a matter of weeks, get caught up in a wave of disbelief so strong that I begin to question my sanity as well.

In AA, a belief in gOd is not critical, but a belief in a power greater than one's self is.

I turned to T. B. at a meeting on Friday and said, "I'm having issues with Step 2. I want to speak with you about that."

The meeting was ready to begin and I didn't have time to elaborate.

This evening, I found this.

Enough said.